Saturday, September 26, 2009

you know how if you reach
the optimal level of silliness
you'd be cute,
and once beyond that you're
just too freakin embarrassing.

미워도 사랑하니까 아파도 사랑하니까
너는 내 남자이니까 니가 날 안아줘야 해
모든 걸 다 알면서도 속고 또 속아주는게
여자의 마음인 걸 모르니
아파도 사랑하니까
미워도 사랑하니까

7:48 AM

Friday, September 25, 2009

THANKS THANKS THANKS HAHAHA
OOOLD FRIENDS FOREVER

8:14 AM

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

today is major ____
maybe tomorrow will be better?

9:41 PM

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

someday we need to come to
terms with
what we want, what we shouldn't want,
what we have, what we can't have,
what we need, what we can't afford to need;
you can't be all the great
things that you see everyday,
and you most definitely cannot have
all the great things you know
people have,
so surely life cannot be about getting all
of those but coming to terms
that that's that.

12:23 AM

Sunday, September 20, 2009

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA THANKS.

5:27 PM

Friday, September 18, 2009

its funny because
in my head, i think and i know
that enough is enough.
but then somewhere along the way
of outward expression,
this rationality just gets warped.
mayb it'd be nice if i were
half as resolute as what my
consciousness is.
even tho we have no need to
answer to the world,
it is all sad because even i
sometimes perpetuate this
judging of random people just
wanting to lead normal private lives.
it is a common social activity
for clusters of people to dig thru
your lil internal environment
and ridicule you for being ___.
so yes, i wish i saw it as simply
as you do.
i mean, it becomes almost educational
how simply you put it, it almost
makes me want to believe it.
somehow Happiness and Freedom
are too mutually exclusive in
the context of my life for them
to ever seriously happen, you know,
like simultaneously.

8:28 AM

owell yes when it comes to people,
the real deal is always hard to come by
when you are kinda odd, somewhat reclusive,
ever-sceptical about everyone's lil hidden agendas
and to top it up, not on Facebook.
i guess i can only be secretly glad for
bezzzfriendforfreakinlife van-aw1988
for being the one person whom i can
finally not talk superficial random blah with,
and about the things that really matter;
travel, music, aspirations, the world,
life, people, and the lols...
and for adopting the anti-social lifestyle that
i could only wish for from afar hahaha.
the moral of the story is,
when you're weird, find someone weirder.
i guess when you get old,
you just stop building quality relationships
with people becoz you just want to roll your
eyes ever too often.
so yes children if you're reading this,
look around you:
this is all the friends you'll ever have,
YES YES STARTING CRYING NOW HAHAHA

12:07 AM

Friday, September 11, 2009

I LOVE ELLEN HAHAHAHAHAHAH
some of us will never ever ever
be one of those cookiecutter graduates
that NTU could use as promotional materials
for their recruitment brochures
but no matter what School tells us
about what we should want to be
this is our life
and we can be anything we want to be.

1:07 PM

Thursday, September 10, 2009

i think this must be one
of the most haunting songs everrr,
scenes of the big romantic mess that
Grey's is comes flashing by and
switches me into my
cancel the world out mode.
i get worried by how comfortable
i am in this mode and how unwilling i
can get to switch out of this mode.
i wish i'd sorted things out by now.
i hope one day it'll all fall into place,
and we'll look back on our silly selves.
i know im not one of those whose lives
get sorted out, but meanwhile,
i think i'll just look at it as it burns?
i am full of fluff and all that im ever
good at with people are the mindless
superficials and the lols,
just to try to overcompensate for how
im scared to death of depth and substance
because they bare all my frailties naked.
so i'm both thankful and perplexed
by how things flowed because
we started on unusual ground.
distance and ambiguity keeps me safe
but the world likes to snap you out and
into reality.
im not good at this but i want to be
so lets see how this will be.

1:48 AM

Monday, September 07, 2009

i have an alter ego
she inserts emoticons in texts
and she sounds compulsively
enthusiastic,
her grammatically-sound,
carefully-structured sentences are
puncutated - no less -
and reeking of all the love,
hope and shiz in the world.
yes for reallzxzxz
the things we do for survival
and our desperate struggle for
normalcy.
dunch judgexzx herzx.

8:16 PM

Saturday, September 05, 2009

its not like you
could reverse engineer it just
to satisfy your dying curiosity
without first tearing it down thoroughly.
cruel shiz.

10:43 PM

Friday, September 04, 2009

can't explain you,
better i don't.

9:56 PM